(not actually) Coping with things.

Hey, sorry you're feeling so overwhelmed atm. I just wanted to say I really appreciate the compassion you showed me the other day especially considering how much is going on for you.

I think you put it better than I could:

I hope you find a way to continue, it's fcking hard, I get that, but life is beautiful with you in it. Someone out there cares for you too.

I hope you're afternoon is calmer.

@Former-Member I appreciate that post. I thank you for reminding me of that. I hope you're going OK too.

My support worker took me out for coffee to the river. I'm feeling a little better, and I'm seeing my psychologist in less than an hour.

I'm really unwell at the moment.

My psychologist didn't go well and I got really upset and hurt myself pretty bad.

But I'll be OK. I think. I just feel so hopeless and overwhelmed. I feel like I can't do it anymore, but I'm safe and the hospital will help me out.

Hey @The-red-centaur,

Sorry you're having such a horrible time, I hope you can find some peace this afternoon.

I still reckon you're pretty great and I'm glad you're getting some help.

@Former-Member thanks.

I ended up sleeping most of the afternoon.

I feel stuck, like there's no way forward. But I know I've been here before amd can get through it. It just sucks.

I'm so tired and overwhelmed, I guess it's good I've been sleeping. I have slept most of the day.

I don't know what to do anymore. The Dr at the hospital wants to stop my meds because he thinks they're not helping and he doesn't think meds will help me anyway. I feel even more hopeless now. It feels like nothing will help. Like everyone has given up like I have.

Sigh. I guess I should see what tomorrow brings.

I'm anxious about seeing some specialists today. I did some damage and I'm waiting to find out if I can eat and drink normally. It sucks.

I feel so overwhelmed. Like what's the point anyway. I've gone back so far I don't want to keep trying. I have regressed so far back into my DID and trauma that I'm losing touch with reality. I did a schema test with my psychologist on Monday and that was really triggering. I am ashamed of when I'll see her next after what happened on Monday.

She tried to get me to go to hospital but I was so far gone I even ran away from home.

I feel like the kid in me. She is scared and terrified and doesn't feel safe. I don't know how to soothe or calm myself and tell her she's ok.

I'm sorry that sounds absolutely awful @The-red-centaur, if you wanna chat or just have someone listen I'm about.

@Former-Member thanks. I just don't know what to say. Maybe later.

No worries @The-red-centaur I get that. Idk what it's like for you but for me, I've got lots to say but only when no one is listening, when they are it gets all jumbled and I can't think straight.