Privacy

My family is aware that I write a journal type thing and post it to SANE each day. I havent shyed away from telling them that. Its a great way for me to work through my thoughts and feelings. Im really open people can read the posts or not, they are long and can be a lot of carry on. Just me getting things off my chest.

Today my sister asked me where I post to and I said SANE. She goes on to say that thats what she thought but she couldnt get on and find anything. That her and one of her support workers had tried and no luck. She just casually told me that she had gone behind my back and tried to find my posts. The ones I tell her nothing about when she asks, the ones that I close the program and lock the tablet everytime I walk away from it so no one can read. The one I do the same if anyone is in eyesight of the tablet.

To say I feel violated is a complete understatement. The stuff I write isnt for my family. I write and she knows I write where my name isnt legit, where people dont know me, cant know me, its my safe space and here she comes smashing in. Best of all she is acting like she didnt do anything wrong, I didnt even bother to have a go at her because she will act all innocent like she didnt realise what she was doing was wrong or would upset me. Which is a complete load of crap, if she found my posts, she wouldnt have said a word, she would have happily read away, taken what she wanted from it and told Mum.

Ive sent an email to SANE and asked if there is any way to change my name but keep my posts etc or do I have to delete my profile and all my posts and start again. The latter is my guess. The name I go by I expect, if she were able to navigate and find (which she asked me to show her), she might guess was me and would be able to confirm by the posts. So I need to come up with a new name that my family would never guess, never associate with me. God I might even use ClockFace or something that simple and plain.

Im going to continue as is for now, see what SANE say, I dont want to lose this outlet for me. I really cant believe that she did this. SANE is so important to me in managing my day to day and she decided to get the help of another person, who should have said this was wrong, to try and read my personal stuff, if I wanted her to know about I would tell her. Im so very hurt and so very mad and there is nothing I can do, everyone will take her side and she will play innocent, but my family isnt abusive to me at all.