Depression and IBS

I’ve been suffering from depression for many of years. I also suffer from IBS which is really hard to live with and control. My IBS creates the severe depression for me. I can’t believe I’m sharing this on this forum but I need someone to talk to.
I’ve tried doing a FODMAP diet but that hasn’t helped and I still have symptoms. I’m just depressed in general. Everything I used to love to doing, I just don’t get enjoyment out of anymore. I don’t feel like talking when I’m around people, I am extremely quiet because I am that depressed and I don’t like who I am as a person.

I can’t go out and enjoy myself anymore. Even just going out for dinner in a restaurant is difficult for me. How am I supposed to go on an airplane/plane again when I have IBS. This creates soo much stress and anxiety for me. I can’t go overseas or anywhere because I’m too damn scared about getting symptoms. I hate my life and I wish I didn’t suffer from this. I’m married and I have a very supportive partner but it’s unfair on him that I have to cancel things if we can invited somewhere because I don’t feel like going out because of my depression and IBS 😞