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Don't want to face another birthday
It is my birthday today and I hate it. It reminds me I'm alive and I shouldn't be. I wish I had never been born. I will have to spend another day with a smile that feels like it's burning my face off. It is worse on your birthday because you have to look especially happy and gracious to people weren't there when nightmares came true. I just want to end it all but that is just another thing to feel guilty about. I hate myself, every disgusting detail, and would love to smash my head in. My wish is to die in an accident today so I don't get blamed. So many years that never should have been. Sorry to waste your time, I'm just so alone and thought this was worth a try to distract me through the night at least. Why am I taking up a worthless life when other people are taken from rich, happy lives? I feel guilty everytime I think of it. I'm just tired, so sick and tired. My apologies but there is no one else and it's all seething inside me, I could rip my skin off. Oh well, I will still be here and get up in the morning, I have to.
