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Winter solstice

Winter solstice

Longest night of the year and the darkness and coldness have really hit. Things seem really bleak. I've been struggling for a long time and was pacing myself to this point but can't see beyond it. I'm safe but despairing. I'm trapped in a vortex of family dysfunction from earliest years and emotional pain, received and (mea culpa) inflicted. I can't help my closest sibling - all others are estranged - and I don't seem able to extricate myself from personal difficulties and dilemmas that at present ďefine me - I have no connections or other identity. I've lost faith in my mh team.

I guess the sun will rise tomorrow, and I'll keep taking one day at a time, but I can't envision a future, my future.

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Just hugs and hugs @Dimity

it’s pretty delicate here…. But there are silver linings….

the wooden leg and false eyes don’t help…lol...doing what we can

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@Appleblossom wrote:

Not logged on forum for a while. Access to computer limited. Real life pressures rising. Some of it is good some been a roller coaster. Son going through a lot and was in hospital. Heartbreaking and exhausting but somehow I am still here.


Hope you are OK, @Appleblossom ... 🤞

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@Dimity wrote:

Hi @NatureLover I'll have to check to see if any more potential helpers have tried to get in touch. The online platform isn't very easy to use and I've been distracted. Feeling churned up by my sister's problems and some misunderstandings on the forums. My sister is very unwell.


Am very sorry to hear, @Dimity . So much trouble for you 😢

My day off last Thursday resulted in double the work yesterday, but it went well thanks.

Hoping your back and your troubles and the EMDR triggers ease... 🤞

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I'm glad you were able to work yesterday @NatureLover and catch up. Perhaps it's a good thing if it matters whether you're there or not... even if it makes for extra work from time to time. You must be valued.

The rain tonight is soothing. I'm pretty tired after a long but helpful session with my new gp. And the family crisis seems to have eased. Tomorrow I'll be waiting on a couple of referrals and trying to get the house back in order (relatively speaking).

Enjoy your day.

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Thanks for your kind words, @Dimity 🙂

I am so pleased you have a new GP! And that the family crisis has eased 👍

I hope these new referrals help your health situation.

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Thinking of you @Dimity and hoping you are coping OK... ❤️

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Thanks @NatureLover . I've been struggling... but am working on several fronts. I have upcoming appts for medical issues - very anxious about finding my way there. I'm trying to ease back into cleaning and decluttering. I'm trying to process the online paperwork to get a new helper. I ventured into the garden - there's a lot to catch up on. I'll have to go to the local library to print a raft of forms to fill in for the specialist. I'm still processing the last EMDR session. I'll try to get back to the forum guidelines and be constructive. It would be nice to get out of the house or talk to someone.

The week is looking a bit daunting but it's been a while since I could think even a day ahead so I guess that's progress.

Hope your week goes well.

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Oh gosh, @Dimity , I was overwhelmed just reading all your tasks!

Well done for working on them despite struggling...


@Dimity wrote:

I'm trying to process the online paperwork to get a new helper.

Does this mean you've found someone to help?

Good luck with working out the way to your medical appts. I hope they go well 🤞

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@NatureLover I'm trying to get through the advertising and selection processes at the moment.

I had a bad day.

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Really sorry it was a bad day yesterday @Dimity

It sounds complicated to arrange a helper 😣 Good luck with it...

Sending care and wishes for you.

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