Sick of not being able to talk to anyone about my MH issues

Hi @Jlol

I do not think many on this forum will say it is easy to get help. It is a bureacratic nightmare.

I think we have to respect listening to others issues is not for everyone. At work, most will be going through something and discuss it with their resources and not work mates.

This forum is the one for you if you want to be heard.

You may not know why a gambler gambles or an alcoholic drinks. They will reach out at their forums.

I think this is the right place for you.

Me too @Jlol

Hi @Former-Member

Hi @Former-Member

And @Jlol

Please reach out here.

Protect your close ones or give them some respite.

They know what is happening with sysytem frustrations

Hi @Jlol

To elaborate.

My closest friend broke down after supporting me through an issue in its 8th year.

Compassion Fatigue.

Saw all the effort l was going through, but the systems let me down.

People can only listen so long.

Like someone telling you they have no money for 5 years. It tires us.

Sane and Lifeline do not tire of your story. Sure we get frustrated but with the system, not the person

Thanks @Former-Member

My life feels like it's just a combination of fear and work.

I get up at 7 each day, commute to work, work and come back home around 7. After which I am so tired I'm a zombie.

I can't unwind. If I do anything I actually want to do in the slithers of time between work I get told by my partner that I'm "wasting time" or "should be doing something more important" or "ignoring" her. As soon as she makes one of these claims, the night is ruined - her anger snowballs and snowballs and will go out of control.

So I don't do anything at home except chores because that's the easiest way to avoid setting her off.

Now that doesn't mean I get away with it. If she's in a bad mood I'll still get in trouble for something - anything. And then there's all the stuff I just vaguely mess up because I'm human - accidentally forget to clean a plate, accidentally knock something over, miss a spot when I'm mopping the floor, etc. This is another way to set her off.

I'm legitimately afraid of this because I really don't have the energy to cope with the unreasonable, extreme and illogical anger, being so depleted from work and not really having any other friends or people in my life.

So, yeah, life is work and when its not work its chores to avoid being made to feel like the worst person on the planet.

And yeah, I've talked to psychologists and counsellors about it. Their input? "Just leave the relationship". Yeah, like it's that easy. Go where? Live in the car? What about work? What about my finances which are all intertwined? What about my belongings? Clothes? Showers? Hell, how do I even iron my shirt for the office when you're sleeping in a car?

One thing I know about psychologists is this: they're rich. They charge $250+ an hour, so of course they are. They live in a different world where money can solve most of their problems. "Why don't you rent somewhere else?", "Why don't you hire a lawyer?". Yeah mate, sure, sure.

Until they get back down to reality, I've decided they don't deserve any more of my money. They've taken enough of it. Probably close to tens of thousands over the last 20 years. I hope they're happy with it. Put it towards their 3rd investment property. Maybe a lovely little trip to Europe. Maybe spring for that metallic paint on the new Tesla. Good on ya guys.

Meanwhile, I'm still here with all the problems they were meant to help me with.

Sending hugs. I know how you feel love 😞

Hi @Jlol

Sounds like you are walking on egg shells whatever you do.

Horrible place to me.

And you highlighted my big hate.

People saying "just move"

I am glad you identified the issues with leaving the relationship or situation. Flippant answers to move, unless it is a new problem, stresses me. If you have had the issue ongoing, there are reasons you are there.

I did a few things.

The main one l hear you doing anyway.

We cannot (often) change others. We can change how we react.

I hear you doing your best in a few bad situations and glad you are on the forum.

I conclude with. (Often) Life is not fair.

Glad to share the journey with you!