Another failed relationship

Hey there @ThatGuyBPD ,

Welcome to the forums. Good on you for reaching out. It certainly sounds like you have done your very best to better yourself so that you could move on in life.

I'm sorry to hear that you have been placed in a situation whereby you feel insecure. Having BPD often means there is a hypersensitivity always there. This can be very helpful in that it makes you a more compassionate and zealous person. However, it can also have a down side in that you 'know' people better than others and can 'feel' when something isn't right.

Whatever it is, please don't lose hope. When you find purpose and meaning in life, people will gravitate towards you. I know that because I'm in that position. Having BPD, I always saw myself as anti-social and had no hope of making even a friend. However, through MBT treatment, I have the most amazing life now. There are people always wanting to be around me, and if anything, it's me that tries to get away so I can have some 'alone' time.

BPD takes you on an amazing journey. You get to find out so much more about yourself and others, just by having BPD.

Keep holding on. There IS hope. Continue to find things that are meaningful for you. This will help you thrive. One unsuccessful relationship doesn't mean it will be doom and gloom forever.

Thank you so much for posting. I see your honesty and transparency through your post.

Well done on bettering yourself!

How would I go about seeking mbt? Any info would be great.

It's quite an unknown therapy @ThatGuyBPD . I did mine through Spectrum Victoria. It was for 18 months - twice a week, about 3-4 hours in total. I was a huge commitment, but it paid off.

When you had DBT, did you have group therapy too? I found MBT group therapy the hardest, but the most beneficial.

Mine was a 6 months group dbt skills. I learnt some good skills, but I find when a major crisis hits and it's seems like the end of the world to me I fold over and have no fight in me. I struggle to access the skills before breaking point. And now I'm all cried out, I'm petrified to face any people, and the outside world. After the probable path of destruction I have left. it's very hard at times to not simply feel like a burden to every person I cross paths with. Hence me feeling the need to just stay away from people now.

I say this cause I am aware of the damage I for sure caused during the final moments of our relationship. When the panic hit and I went into a state of raw emotion the feeling of losing her drove me to say and do some bad things for sure. I'm riddled with guilt.