AriasCasual Contributor
Sudden crash in mood
I'm really struggling and unsure where to turn. I've been feeling ok, some days good and hopeful. The last few days I've had a pretty abrupt crash and while there's a lot going on, I'm not sure why. It's like I've just had enough. I'm lonely and feel like I'll be alone forever. Which I know is probably unrealistic. But I can't seem to rationalise myself out of this utter despair. I feel like a burden. I feel like I don't have close friends I can turn to. I've been supremely let down medically. I'm not working. I'm being diagnosed with some unknown autoimmune illness after realising I've probably had undiagnosed autism for 3 decades. So, yeah, I get that there's a lot going on that I can't really control and that is quite challenging. But. This abrupt change in ability to cope is staggering. I hope it will turn around soon. And it feels pathetic, to be this old and this unable to make myself happy.
