Loz_3647Senior Contributor
TW: Self harm also SI
As sh*tty as things have been I try to look on the 'bright side'. But truth is there is no 'bright side'...at least not for me. I can't do this anymore. I know I'm trying to fake a life that wasn't made for me. I am nothing and never will be anything. Nothing is going good and whilst I'm stuck to deal with it all in my own head I just hear that voice in my head telling me to just hurt myself. I have tried to not listen to that voice but it makes a lot of sense. Why would I continue to stay in a life that continuously hurts? I am alone, I am nothing, I barely exist. I'm sorry for the doom and gloom but this is what is going on inside of my head. Ultimately I know it doesn't matter and I don't think there is anything anyone can say anymore that will make it seem better...this life has been a let down. It has been painful. I say enough is enough.