FaithinGodCasual Contributor
Suicidal thoughts
Most days I wake up with suicidal thoughts and throughout the day until bedtime I experience this too. Partly it is because of poor cognition, partly its because I feel drugged up with antipsychotics and an antidepressant and sleeping pills (for sleep at night), and partly because of Insomnia.
I have been living like this for years. I used to get fed up of waiting in the hospital emergency department for this experience, or on crisis helplines including the local Acute Care Team and Continuing Care Team (which mostly were bad experiences) and Lifeline and Suicide Call Back phoneline. I continue to see various Doctors and Psychiatrists. Psychologists are my least favourite, my condition is so different and I have seen them enough.
What keeps me going is faith in God (I am Christian), but honestly I have been through so much. It's really been hard. I am also living with psychosis which gets worse on many antipsychotics.
