anamayCasual Contributor
confused and a little lost i guess? i don't know what to call it to be honest
so i have a small dilemma-
i'm in my last year of high school.
assesment is piling on top of each other; one by one which turns to a thousand.
my mind can't help but to procrastinate and i never freak out until an hour before deadline.
my efforts go to the same for my friends and family. which is why i don't want to go to them to talk about my- another word for depression- because it doesn't feel like depression.
lonely, lost, confused, lazy, behind, constantly these feelings are what i always feel everyday but i've grown used to it. except it still doesn't feel completely right.
the little problem with this is i've grown to resort to small pills, drugs, alcohol, but not too excessive.
i want to talk to someone about it and i've researched the helplines but i don't have a phone, just a laptop. but all these support lines require a phone number to use to be able to talk to people and i don't know what to do.
again, it has left me lost, confused and lonely.
