Hi @The-red-centaur,
I'm sorry you are feeling this way. You are very important and very valid and you have every right to a good life just like anyone else. It's good that you went to the hospital last night but I'm sorry that the experience made you feel like it was pointless.
Are you able to reach out to your carers or the community team today? It sounds like you could do with some one-on-one support right now. Unfortunately whilst SANE is here to support everyone we aren't a crisis or counselling service so if you ever feel you need immediate support you can call any of the following services for immediate support:
Lifeline: 13 11 14 or Crisis Chat
Suicide call back service: 1300 659 467 or online counselling
Samaritans: 135 247
If in immediate danger: 000
Warm wishes,
FloatingFeather