I am severely exhausted

I feel severely broken physically and mentally every single evening, I wake up in the morning and I dread another day, I say to myself I’ve have to do this!

I’m a single parent with no family support and I’m currently trying to raise my two-year-old toddler he’s going through an intervention for autism for his behaviour he’s hit a massive peak I physically can’t handle it I get beaten down every single day every single interaction with my son it never used to be this bad I understand he is severely frustrated because he can’t communicate but I am working so hard trying to get him as waitlist as many as I possibly can , I’ve had a lot of trauma and I’ve had a lot of therapy healing my trauma but this constant repeating behaviour towards me trying to parent a child that pushes against me for the moment he wakes up to the moment and goes to bed I can’t help it take this personally it is been every day for the past two years and my mental health is severely depleted I don’t think I can do this and I’m so scared for the future I feel so guilty I can’t shake these feelings it such a sad place that I’m in I just miss my happy baby boy.

thank you so much for letting me vent