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Kyle1Senior Contributor19 Mar 2023, 8:32 am AEDT

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When I do venture out of the house I often manage to find something modestly pleasant along the way. It may be a rose bush... Or someone wearing a beautiful hat... A smiling face and friendly chat about their dog...

By far the hardest thing is the increasing fight against decreasing motivation to even get out the door.

Like this morning. Church is happening, and I typically enjoy to be part of it. Yet I'm lolling like it's a doona day and wishing for oblivion. My esteem is a crash site. My pity a litter dump. I don't want to become an imposter, smiling hello when my feelings are so dank. It's like I'd be lying. And I'm past letting my true sadness show, aswell, because I don't want to bring down the room with gloom and madness. And so I'm beginning to isolate, and that is like a venom, too...

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Gillie1Senior Contributor21 Mar 2023, 10:09 am AEDT

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Hot Cross buns and coffee should keep me going for a while.
How about you?

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Kyle1Senior Contributor21 Mar 2023, 10:15 am AEDT

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Oh, I'm heavily lacking on the appetite front, @Gillie1

Plenty of coffee in my veins, though.

They may say what they want about caffeine and all but coffee is my last surviving comfort these days.

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Gillie1Senior Contributor21 Mar 2023, 10:24 am AEDT

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LOL if you avoid everything that might impact your mental health day to day there would be very little pleasure in life. I'm trying for 1 coffee a day.

I'm sorry I disappeared from the hospital conversation. Hospitals are very triggering for me too. It's hard to be in a place when you are at your worst, surrounded by people who only see you at your worst. It can be a tough place to be sometimes.

I hope you find something to tempt your tastebuds @Kyle1

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Gillie1Senior Contributor21 Mar 2023, 10:35 am AEDT

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https://youtu.be/E7RoLhIWm5o
my morning routine atm is to try and watch one of these for half an hour or so while enjoying my coffee.

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hanamiSenior Contributor21 Mar 2023, 10:39 am AEDT

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That's beautiful @Gillie1 . Very calming!

❤️

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Gillie1Senior Contributor21 Mar 2023, 10:42 am AEDT

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Thanks

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Kyle1Senior Contributor21 Mar 2023, 5:27 pm AEDT

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That's interesting... I went to sleep to this one last night

https://youtu.be/Gppn2CXeucM

Thanks, @Gillie1 I like it :ok_hand:

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