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Kyle1Senior Contributor
I've been going through something for a while now. A lot of emotion. A lot of trauma like feeling. A lot of powerlessness. Feels like some creature-like force has taken me by the nape and collar and just thrashes me side to side...
Sometimes I'm OK with not being OK.
Other times its unbearable and torturous.
And sooo exhausting...
What a way to start the day!
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Kyle1Senior Contributor
@Historylover
Hello there! How are you today so far?
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HistoryloverSenior Contributor
Hello @Kyle1. Actually, I'm not well at the moment. I hope you're doing alright and that you enjoy your day. The sun is shining here and it looks like it will be a nice day.
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Kyle1Senior Contributor
@Historylover
Do you feel like talking about it? ...
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HistoryloverSenior Contributor
I have nothing to live for @Kyle1. My life is without purpose and I am tired of the pain, the injustice, and the stupidity and untrustworthiness of my family and the human race. I am tired of my life's events and conversations resurfacing in my thoughts. Nothing can be done. That is just the reality. There is no purpose in allowing myself to be 'uplifted' again, if that was possible, as I will only crash again. I just take each day as it comes.
Still safe.
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Kyle1Senior Contributor
Oh, gosh...
I know those days. Despair and beyond...
I'm so sorry to hear of your pain.
If only something magical would drop from the sky and change our world, huh?..
If I could I would bring you to my favourite Cafe. It's a beautiful big building, painted white. With walls made of windows, and the entire ceiling opaque skylight. They have a courtyard of greenery and white flowers, too... AND, a resident bantam rooster who roams the premises like a house cat...
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HistoryloverSenior Contributor
Nice song, @Kyle1. Thank you for your kind words. I hope you have a nice day today. I send you my best wishes.
EDIT: I have just been reading your first post on this thread. Look after yourself, Kyle. As I recall— am I correct that you have 3 children? Or was that someone else?
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Kyle1Senior Contributor
@Historylover
Yes, 3 children
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HistoryloverSenior Contributor
Take care of all yourselves, @Kyle1.
P.S. I now have an earworm—Somewhere over the Rainbow!
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AppleblossomSenior Contributor
Good luck today in court. Trying times.
@Kyle1
I could really relate to your opening post about being your whole body being shaken from side to side. My imagery was as I was the end of a firefighting hose out of control shaking all over the place. For me it occurred for a while back, maybe 6 months to a year, in my very worst days a long time ago. Yours is the first post that recalls those moments for me. It is alright, as I can also feel how far I have come and what I have experienced. Also here in this thread you try and give hope to others. Good luck today in court. I really mean it.
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