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I'm Suicidal

PokemongirlContributor31 Oct 2016, 10:42 pm AEDT

I'm Suicidal

Hi guys...

i come on here to see what I can find.... yeah, I can't help but wanting to help others....

But the fact is, I'm suicidal with very clear intend. I'm at a point where again and again, I found myself sick then lose jobs, or lose jobs then sick.... gain weight then lose, lose then gain weight from the involuntary injections....

im a burden to the medical system, I'm a burden to society.... I don't see myself as disable but society reminds me so..... not working since 1.5 years ago, have had numerous rejections from interviews....

Instead, why don't I just declare myself invalid, and get handout?? Better yet!!! Euthanise myself, it's more humane...

i don't want to do this anymore.....

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PokemongirlContributor02 Nov 2016, 4:18 pm AEDT

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@utopia

Yeah, they have been extremely good, despite the lack of funding I've heard....I have been speaking with them every day, sometimes on the phone, sometimes an appointment....

ive made it clear that I don't wish to go to the hospital... and I think they agree there's no need at this stage.

Tomorrow there's an appt but I think they are discharging me, as I am 'better'....

i just need my job situation to change, but it is so hard.....

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utopiaSenior Contributor02 Nov 2016, 5:25 pm AEDT

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@Pokemongirl. I'm glad they have been keeping in daily touch. Even when you are discharged - you can ph the Triage Nurse anytime you need to.
When is your next appointment with your psychologist? Hopefully you can coordinate it to be close to when you are discharged.

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PokemongirlContributor03 Nov 2016, 12:19 am AEDT

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I don't have a psychologist.... yet.... or I did have one but public one, I don't find him helpful so I'm currently 'shopping' for one....

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utopiaSenior Contributor03 Nov 2016, 1:00 am AEDT

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@Pokemongirl. Try and find a psychologist who is specialised in your type of Mental Illness or trauma. This can help to create a bond - so that you can both work together comfortably.

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PokemongirlContributor03 Nov 2016, 2:30 am AEDT

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@utopia thanks... yeah I really need to get my arse into getting a psychologist.... every time I thought I'm well now and don't need one, and then suddenly when I need one I don't have one.

hope you are keeping well too utopia Xxox

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utopiaSenior Contributor03 Nov 2016, 9:31 am AEDT

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I'm well @Pokemongirl. Could do with some sleep that doesn't involve nightmares. But other than that - I'm feeling pretty good at the moment.

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