ClockFaceSenior Contributor
Escallated
Last night I went to bed like normal. My sister was fine, she doesnt sleep much so I dont stay up for her, not that I should have too.
Anyhow an hour later my Mum rings and tells me something is wrong with my sister and to go down and help Dad. As Im leaving my room Dad is at my door asking me if he should call an ambulance.
Go down to find my sister completely out of it, hardly responsive, when shes talking its just uncoherant, falls asleep at a drop of a hat and nearly falling off her seat. Very clear that she has O/D be it accidental or on purpose, I was like yes Dad you call an ambulance, like its not something you should think about you should just be doing it.
Keep in mind Ive gone to bed, so Ive taken all my medications, alot being sedatives so Im not on my A game at all. All my body wants to do is sleep and my brain seriously doesnt want to think.
Ambulance came and we were able to work out a range of meds she took and they took her to hospital, where she is now. Trying to get info at the moment but no one will answer the phone.
During the day she had said something about what I would do if I thought she had over dosed and I said Id call an ambulance of course. I really didnt think anything of it as it seemed like an off the cuff remark and she says shit like that all the time. I feel like I should have realised, that I should have done something. Like maybe I should have taken her meds, I have all the lighters and I hold on to the car (shared) keys. But where does it stop, do I put all the knives in my room, you know anything sharpe, anything dangerous. Then of course I would have to put a lock on my room and hand out half the house to people as they need them.
On the other side I am, and I feel guilty that I am, but Im angry that she has done this. Burning is one thing, I got pretty mad that she took off in the car, but this really ticks me off. I know she has BPD and all the sudden my world is all about that and now this. Its not fair for her but what she is putting me through is BS
