Hi @StayOrGo
I've only read your post that started this thread so I don't know what others have said.
My last suicide attempt was last year... hasn't even been a year yet.
I struggle with suicide ideation all the time or just wanting to disappear.
I did have a few of the guilt trips but not from the hospital and the fact that it sounds like from what you said the guilt trips started in hospital is absolutely appalling to me.
My mother actually was the first to start on me and when she called at the hospital the nurse hung up on her and refused to let her talk to me when she called the hospital phone cause she took mine after informing my hubby.
But it wasn't what people said that made me feel guilty. It was feeling like I was screwing my child up just like they way my mother did to my siblings and I.
Coincidentally the feeling I was repeating my mother's mistakes is usually what leads to my suicidal thoughts.
After talking to nurses and the hospital psychologist they spoke to my husband and it's about 9 months later and we are moving from rural town to a more city area when mental health services are more accessible. And they also spoke to my hubby and I about making sure I have proper supports and signs my hubby should be aware of.
The thing is I want to be here but it's also guilt that I get suicidal thoughts.
I'm not sure I'm making sense but I think you need to have better support before it becomes too much for you again. Knowing others who attempted and were brought back feelings of guilt eventually lead back to suicide. It is hard but honestly people need to learn that making someone who attempted feel bad rather than surrounding them with support is what leads to reattmpts. And health professionals of any type are taught this so it appals me that you were treated like that
