I won’t speak to your specific medication because it’s important you have a treating doctor who you feel safe with, and comfortably enough with to discuss exactly what you are going through.
That disclaimer aside, I am currently in a very similar, nightmarish situation.
MY DIAGNOSES
• ADHD
• Panic Disorder
• PTSD
MEDS I TAKE
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(yup, that’s three giant portions of the infamous white anxiety saviour a day, for the last 10 years).
WHY WITHDRAWALS?
Because my psychiatrist is both negligent and incompetent. But I am stuck with him (there are legal difficulties with prescribing stimulants and only psychiatrists can apply for authority). Leaving the deets for another time and place, Ive developed a tolerance for a** [removed by moderators] so my dose no longer has the required effect, but my physical body is heavily addicted to a high daily dose, so either I stick to my ancient dose, which means I don’t run out, but I don’t get the psychological relief they used to give. So sometimes I take more and run out.
My Advice?
This advice comes from my personal experience (honestly I’m surprised I’m still standing). Don’t self-manage your meds - withdrawals from some psychoactive medication is particularly dangerous. I’ve lived through agonising withdrawals, and there will be more to face again soon. I wouldn’t voluntarily go through this if I had any other choice. If I were you I would be hunting for a doctor to help you safely and gradually reduce your dose rather than stopping suddenly.