The Mental Health System Struggle & Advice needed

I have seen the same doctor for 15 years and had the 2 psychiatrists (both have now retired) and looks as though my doctor may be also retiring soon.

My fears of abandonment and being unable to control the situation are extremely overwhelming. I’ve spent weeks searching for a new psychiatrist and of course none bull bilk and both my previous did. I don’t understand how people are expected to pay a minimum of $360 to see a psychiatrist for 50mins. I require talk therapy which is at least once a week or every fortnight. Now I cannot afford my own treatment.

The system is seriously broken. I’m so disheartened and scared for my future without proper treatment. Now on top of finding a psychiatrist I have to find a new doctor who has a long history in mental health (near impossible). I take three medications one of which is strongly controlled and I seriously concerned for my health and well-being if I cannot find the right GP and they refuse to give me my medication as most clinics do not like prescribing controlled drugs which you cannot even mention in this forum (which shows how bad the stigma and issue is that you can’t even mention a drugs name) and refuse too. I have been tapering off with my doctors help of a 20 year history of being on this drug and being abruptly cut off can cause serious problems including death.

I’m truly at a loss at how I’m going to find the right GP to take over my case and 15 years of medical history. As well as a suitable psychotherapist. Especially as I’m not a rich person who can afford to throw 360 bucks out the window a week.

if anyone has any advice or ideas on where to even begin I’d appreciate it. Right now I’m struggling to come up with or find a solution. I have a full time amazing job and this setback could really trigger and put my mental illness to the forefront. I suffer from both mood and personality disorders. the future seems frightening right now