What 2Do...

It feels like no one's there and I am imploding with no one to pick up the pieces. All I get is stone-wall-ing with very little evidence that I am but taking up space in a mortal body. Apparently I need not to talk about life with those outside my family but sometimes it's necessary. It demonstrates why I'm so far in this damned hole...feeling like I can't share with family and that I bring shame on them when I reach out. I'm so done with this and don't know where to turn.

Sorry all...guess I realllllly need a virtual hug. Feeling very sad and alone.