Progress Update

Hello,

I feel myself as a person again. Its gradual, but here and there im feeling like "me", again. To put it simply, when I dont feel like me, I still do useful stuff, e.g cleaning, or spending time with mom. But its mechanical, and based on a random idea about what a good person should do. When I was in that non-me state, feeling disconnected, I was tempted to reach out to an old friend, because thats what loyal friends do. But he was really rude, and manipulative to me.

I don't feel that way anymore. I watched Steven Universe tonight and I legit laughed, and enjoyed it. It was a small moment of joy. It made me think "hey, I might do a bit of work tomorrow if it means I get Steven Universe as a reward". I feel so tired sometimes of being depressed, and now that im on Week 3, Day 2 of taking anti-depressants im glad that something is happening 🙂

I cancelled an event I was organising last week, bit of a bummer but also good for my health in the long-term.

Im happy with my recent decisions.