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@maddison , R U ok my awesome friend

Hello lovely @Shaz51 I am OK. I wrote a post, though I think I kind of have my angle sussed!

Are you Ok?

Heroiam Slava! 🌻

Because you made me smile.

Hey @maddison Just checking in how you are going? ❤️

Hi @amber22

Thankyou. This is kind of you. How are you going?

Melbourne is grey, wet & rainy today. A change from 36*C.

I had quite a dramatic event unfold last night...I am feeling unusually tired now. Not drained.

I don't want to go into boring details. I will have a court hearing next week. I am currently informed that it won't be contested. I'm wanting to go to make sure things are in place.

Living situation is tenuous. I have lists upon lists. Instructions to myself. Controlling what is within my control.

I have apprehensions about unnecessary complications & obstacles. I'm tired of fighting so hard. Not that I was fighting for the wrong things - now I need to fight for new. I hypothesise the actions I take will build the path in front. The Power and strength exponential. I'm aware I have adversaries....& SO MANY friends 😇👼😇👼😇👼😇😇👼😇👼😇👼😇👼😇👼😇👼😇👼😇👼👼😇😇😇👼😇👼😇👼😇😇😇😇👼😇👼😇😇😇❤️❤️❤️😻😻😻🐕🌭....etc! I think you are one of them. ❤️

I was once described as verbose...pftt. 😊 I'm super expressive. Maybe verbose is actually my favourite? If I could find a person who loved verboseness too... that could be cool.

Thanks amber22 for thinking of me & writing to me. I appreciate it. It's a big deal to me.

Hey @maddison Of course, you are so welcome ❤️

I am going okay today, just at work and reaching the afternoon slump so went and got myself a coffee. I tend to get very drained when I come into the office because I am used to working from home so when I come in it is a massive hit to my social side that I am not used to every day and I find it a bit tiring sometimes! (The people are great, but socialising over all is a big thing to do sometimes).

I am sorry to hear that you had a tough time last night. I am here to talk about anything if you needed, but also respect that you might want to keep it private.

Sending lots of virtual hugs,

Amber22

Hi @tonys I am over here now. Do you feel like chatting anytime soon? I do

Hi @amber22 I love your reply to me! It's lovely to talk with people at an equal level.

I have a psychologist now. I have seen him twice. The first meeting I felt ok. This most recent meeting, I didn't like him at all. I didn't like that we weren't equals. I appreciated his questions. I think it's a great tool to get objective insight on oneself. I didn't like, that he made me feel dismissed & very undervalued. I walked out of the office sadder than when I went in.... I'm now considering, perhaps it was good for him to see me withdrawn & sad.

I have a problem with trusting therapists.

I can relate to social being draining.

All things that are 'not what we are used to' can take a toll.

Social is difficult for me because, there may be personalities that are not fully aligned with mine. Of course, neither is right or wrong. There are people, personalities that feel effortless, easy, (this is best for me) & other personalities that require thought, energy. But yes, sometimes, even easy people, if we are not used to it, can be draining for us.

I would actually be interested to know more about your PSW responsibilities.

If I can eventually secure my own housing, I am going to have so much free time to myself. PSW might be a great job for me. I have 20 years experience already!

I don't want to be out of the house 40 hours. I would like to WFH & maybe 2 half days in professional setting. I don't want to have to travel an hour each day either. Local would suit me.

I might like to do online? And one on one in the community, sounds appealing. If, I could assure, help another, I would feel honoured to offer my skills.

I joined a group activity last week. It was entirely overwhelming. The most out of my comfort zone I have been in 20 years?! Confronting.

I could not have asked for a more supportive group of people.

There was a younger than me, bubbly type male there. He had a Mohawk. I could tell he put in extra effort to be funny, & make things feel casual & lighthearted. All the people were kind (I think?) Isn't it a beautiful offer, when a person can sense another's discomfort & offers comfort. And it was a little clumsy, they were maybe out of their comfort zone. It is tiny moments that keep me going.

I'm have not decided if I'm going back yet. I guess, even if it ends up being not my thing - it's healthy for me to participate, have a go🌻

Hi @tyme , I am over here.

I didn't want to discuss on Apple's lovely page. Thanks for offering support. I'm sure it seems to be a night time thing. Usually it's lonliness, depression. Tonight, the anxiety is starting. I prefer that.

I had a good productive day. Went shopping. Texted a friend.

I had an IVO taken out on housemate. I didn't specifically, I requested & police put in. You can delete if I'm not allowed to write that. This all happened in last 2 days. It's a good thing for me

Are you ok?