TW side effects

Warning this contains mentions of weight issues and could be triggering for some.

I am currently suffering badly from med side effects that i have begged and pleaded with my doctors to take me off the meds so that they will go away but they wont take me off them and i am on a treatment order so i am left having to live with them one in particular is causing immense distress and a huge reduction in quality of life, i have gained so much weight it is hard to do basic things for myself physically that is i can not walk far or shower properly because if i stand too long i pass out and anyway i will save you all the horrid details but i dont know what to do in the past 6 months i have tried a weightloss medication combined with diet and exercise and i GAINED weight still there is nothing more i can do i am eating hardly anything and doing all i can to move around despite my back injury which causes immense pain i am completely lost and dont know what to do anymore and it is making me feel hopeless and like there is no point being here plus it is setting off my eating disorder like crazy. i am not sure what is left.