Anniversaries! No escaping

I’m sitting here tonight, pondering the acceptance of what I’m going through instead of fighting it.!!

Christmas has been really tough for me the last three years due to a traumatic event I’ve been healing through trauma counselling and it’s been really good. I’m beginning to pull back the layers and find who I really am. It’s just I realise tonight I cannot control how my body and mind reacts to this time a year I had not even realise the date, but I was wondering why I was finding it harder than usual to meet my needs and why my nightmares had really ramped up and then it dawned on me, the date .

it’s amazing how our mind and body won’t let us forget I’m accepting that this is a tough time and that’s its okay but it’s difficult to explain it to the people around me.

I’m struggling still after three years !!

What’s really bothering me is I have pretty vivid dreams and I thought lucid dreaming was normal I can’t control them, but it’s like I get no sleep does anybody else suffer from this? I’m just wondering I noticed this time last year, my dreaming got really full on

Thanks