BlueRoseCasual Contributor
Loneliness is overwhelming me..
Hello,
I live alone, widowed and my children live many many hours drive away….I live in a remote area of NSW…..I only get seldom message every so often from one of them….the other two I don’t hear from…if I ring them they don’t answer my calls 3/4 of the time and when they do, I feel like I am interrupting their lives…..my anxiety gets to me, then I don’t know what to say…..it’s like my mind closes off….feel I’m a burden to them….
I have PTSD from a violent marriage and childhood, also I have depression and anxiety. I feel like their isn’t really any purpose to my life anymore. I do volunteer work 3 days a week….am always trying to look happy, but it’s getting harder and harder to do this. I am on anxiety meds and have seen psychologist and victims counsellors in the past few years, but cannot afford them anymore. I have spent 2 months in a mental health ward for an attempt…and a couple of weeks in the same ward twice more over the past two years….I don’t want to go back their….my kids don’t know about my hospital stays….They don’t need to know how much of a failure I am at life….I am safe, just feeling so overwhelmed with loneliness and my life.
Thank you for listening to an old lady, ramble on
BlueRose.
