Losing the will to live

Hey @David7,

I have just emailed you 🙂

Hi @Historylover sending my support and strength to see you through this evening. Rest well tonight and hoping tomorrow shines a new light on your spirit. So much negativity floating around at present with many feeling stuck, like walking in quicksand, uninspired, tired and struggling to find their purpose. Sit gently with yourself knowing you are not alone with these feelings. Sitting with you 🙏

Thank you for your support, @Krishna. it's so important to get support when we need it, isn't it? I'm going to try to look about for some more variety to include in my life. I don't know if I'll find it, but I'll give consideration to my limited options. Variety is the spice of life, they say.

@Historylover death seems to be a retreat for me something to look forward to.... i too am finding life hard to deal with the day in day out is hard to take. i love you if that helps x

@Historylover
You said : I had a lovely day today, but when I came home...
So what happened when you got home?

You said : I felt like it had been my last hurrah...
Are you able to say something more about that feeling?

Ideally we should be having an interactive conversation which I find helps me drill down to underlying issues. I personally find such conversations with empathic people very supportive and sometimes healing. Healing at least for me seems to be a long slow and difficult process however some progress appears to be taking place.

Unfortunately these sorts of resources, which for me are essential are just not available here.

Maybe I am wrong but I feel we could have a very useful and productive conversation.

Maybe one day.

Take Care

Willy

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Hi @Historylover . Sorry to hear things are so crook for you. 😟 You mentioned something happening today that you were expecting to go poorly. I don't know whether you'll read this message before then or not, but best of luck, anyway.

I know that sense of being "at your limit", for want of a better phrase. That's pretty much every hour of every day for me.

I don't know what more I can say. I can only send my best wishes that brighter times are on the horizon for you. 🙂

Oh, @Bunniekins, it's so good to hear from you. We don't get to communicate much, but I think of you often and it is always a delight to see your cheerful screen pic and see your posts. From the beginning I have thought of you as Sweetpea for some reason! I'm sorry to hear things can be awful for you still too. I wish I could fix all of our problems. I hope you are doing alright, pea. I send you my love too. You are a very precious lady. xxx

Hello @Willy, and thank you for your message. What happened when I got home? Reality hit me hard. I have made a bucket list of things I wanted to do before I 'go', and most of them are done. I could easily extend the list and have tentatively done so, but I just wonder where to now. My reality is insufferable but one has to be at a certain point to 'go' and I guess my tormentor/ex-psy is just having too much fun toying with me to let me.

You can't help me @Willy, no matter how deeply you drill. My life has been deliberately, maliciously and systematically brought to ruin, and I'm just trying to make the most of what is left. Best wishes.

@chibam, it is always so good to hear from you. Thank you. I'm reading this several hours before the anticipated event today. I don't know how it will go, but I'm anticipating not well.

So sorry to read that you are at your limit so often too. I'm fine when I can put everything out of my mind and occupy myself with things I enjoy, but we all need people too and I'm just too hard to match in the real world, it seems. My reality just keeps hitting hard and it is impossible to reconcile.

I hope there is some sunshine in your day. Thank you for your good wishes. I send you mine. Take care.

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@Historylover wrote:

I feel so down, I don't know how to keep going. I don't think I have ever felt so devoid of the will to keep going.

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Am very sorry to hear, @Historylover 😞

Sending you wishes for your dreaded event today and hoping that it goes better than you expect...