Ugly_TroutSenior Contributor
In a bit of crisis
Hi all. I seem to only use the forums when I can feel myself getting worse. My latest diagnosis is social phobia with paranoid delusions. I'm struggling due to swapping medications and then my psych going on holidays for 3 moths. 3rd time they were changed. I'm due to see a triage nurse tomorrow at the local community mental health team. They won't see me till I'm released from my psych. I'm just getting more shut in in my unit for fear of others in the community.
Not that I think they'd physically hurt me, more the death by a thousand cuts everywhere I go. people laughing at me, cars thinking I'm following them. Other cars following me and tailgating. The outside world is tough to live in.
My question is how do I get all of my conspiracies against me clear to the triage nurse on duty tomorrow? I'm worried they'll just discharge me with no real help. And it's been exhausting carrying around the weight of my thoughts. I barely trust family anymore. Ive got no friends to speak of for support. Music is my saviour. listening to it. Maybe one day learning the keyboard.
I'm really feeling pressure. I've taken 2 mood tablets to calm down but its a never ending self story of paranoia.