Ugly_TroutSenior Contributor
Not sure
Hi
I've used this forum before. I've ended up with a psychiatrist who changed my meds then went on holidays. I'm so lost at the moment. I've said stuff to one friend in order to confirm my feelings of not being liked. He ended saying he's sick of my bullshit. cut ties with me. Why did I do this? I've reached out to lifeline and chatted 3 times in the last month. I'm not calling today because I don't want to waste their time. I've had suicidal thoughts for a long time now. I am not going to ct on it though. How do I chat with a device if I know that at the moment I won't do anything? I'm pretty paranoid at the moment. along with major anxiety issues. I force my self to go out but its horrendously hard. And I feel the effort isn/t worth it. It just confirms my paranoia. The way people look and act around me is just not right. I can feel them not liking me.
Any ideas anyone?