Mental Health Illness Depression

Hi Everyone, My User Name is Pie, But my Real Name is Kylie, I have been Diagnosed with Depression and Anxiety, Recently My Dad has Had an Accident and Totalled His Car, He wasn't Hurt, But now has Severe Depression, He had it Before in 2002 when my Mum and Him were in Hospital, My Mum Died in 2003, I have my dad But am all alone, I feel Lost, I'm not Coping well and am Very Stressed, I have been Taking on More things Like Shopping which I usually don't do and I do Regular Cleaning around the House, I feel Guilty, That I wasn't with Dad when he had the Accident, I was staying In Mildura with a Friend when It Happened, I Blame Myself for this, I do Have a Carer, and Have a Disability. I'm really finding things Tough. Sometimes I have Sucidial Thoughts. Hope to Hear from you soon Thanks.