AmirCasual Contributor
Diagnosis storyline
Heya,
I’m a 35 year old fella living in Brisbane and have lived with mental health challenges most of my adult life. Can’t remember much about the childhood and what that was like.
I was originally diagnosed with depression and generalised anxiety, then social anxiety was added, then unofficially Asperger’s by a counsellor not a psychiatrist.
It stayed like that until I a psychotic episode that lasted more than a year.
once my mind got settled enough for me to realise there was something wrong, I sought help, and this psychiatrist labeled me with schizophrenia and OCD. I knew I experienced psychosis but didn’t buy into schizophrenia. So I stopped taking my antipsychotics after a few months and was fine. fine meaning there is still some paranoid thinking and slight delusions but I can see through them.
later on I was diagnosed with schizotypal personality disorder or autism with psychotic depression.
The psychiatrist said there is no point for me being assessed as there are no interventions for someone around my age. My therapist thinks similar.
At work no one can tell if I have any personality disorder. I’ve worked hard on my communication skills and have meditated and learned enough thoughts to manage myself.
but I can tell from my personal life there is something not right. I have been single for more than 10 years and tend to seek isolation when not working. Haven’t made new friends in a decade.
part of me wonders if I even want a relationship or friends or if that’s what I say to people and therapist because that’s how I should be/think/behave.
I know personality disorders are fairly rigid and don’t change much, but part of me wants to believe that’s not true.
I wonder if anyone can relate or have worked through something similar ?
thank you if you have read my rambling post.
be cool 😎
