HelpmehealSenior Contributor
Having a bad day.
Hi… I am having an especially bad day today. I went through a breakup a few month back and my ex left me for someone else, very suddenly. I have been really struggling ever since. Today, I have tried all my strategies, going for a walk, writing in my journal, listening to an ebook… and I still can’t stop thinking about the break up, the other woman, what was wrong with me, how dark and shapeless I feel inside. I have lost so much… I can’t see a future for myself, no matter how I try. I have had a lot of suicidal thoughts today… no actual planning, but it really does feel unbearable and endless and I don’t know how much longer I can keep being strong. I think I just need support. I have rung beyondblue and lifeline… I wish they helped more, but people just seem to repeat what I am saying back to me and then refer me to services, which leaves me feeling empty. I need to feel like someone is really here for me, I feel so alone, please help me, someone. Anyone.