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creative_writerSenior Contributor
I have been struggling a lot lately with suicidal thoughts. It’s become a daily occurrence and it’s been really overwhelming to cope. I am safe right but having to fight this is very exhausting. I feel so trapped, I am tired of living in pain, fear and shame. I feel like a burden to people and unimportant.
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
@Former-MemberI’ve reached out again right now. I did get through this time and the times before. It’s really hard sitting with this and it feels so miserable. But don’t know what else I can do.
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Captain24Senior Contributor
Hi @Former-Member. There is nothing I can do. I just have to live with it for 2 more days. Then I’ll be out of this toxic environment
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Unknown userMember
It's so hard to sit with such overwhelm. You're not alone @creative_writer and @Captain24. Although it feels unbearable now, it will pass. What kind of self-care and distraction have you found helpful in the past? Sometimes distraction can feel like avoidance, but it can help get through the hardest times so that we can work more long term on the things that we need to.
@Captain24, it's so hard to feel stuck in a toxic environment. Is it something you feel you can explain a bit more about here?
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Unknown userMember
But it's okay if just sitting with the pain until it subsides is what you need to do @creative_writer 💜
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Unknown userMember
@Captain24 , I just read a few of your other posts which gave me some context 😊 It sounds like you will be heading home on Monday, so I understand what you meant about two more days in the toxic environment. Were you able to get out for a swim today?
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Captain24Senior Contributor
I’m on holidays with my parents. @Former-Member. That is the problem. I grew up with non violent DV and CA with my mother the instigator of both and it is still the same. I now know that this is part of the reason for my MI. It is like reliving the trauma all over again.
I love being at the ocean and in the sun. At 45 yrs old I was granted an hour of alone time today to go to the beach today but they weren’t happy about it. That is how ridiculous my life has become. I have learnt a lot about myself this week but it’s currently causing unhealthy thoughts
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Unknown userMember
I'm so sorry to hear what you've experienced and that you have been in that environment again this past week. No wonder it is feeling like you're reliving the trauma.
I'm glad to hear that you'll be home again in a couple of days. I hope knowing that can help keep those thoughts at bay a bit tonight. Is there anything that you are looking forward to doing when you get back home?
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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Captain24Senior Contributor
I live on my own with my little dog Pixie. So I’m Just looking forward to my own space. @Former-Member. I have learnt though that I have a really long way to go in dealing with my trauma!
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Unknown userMember
Wishing you a good rest tonight @creative_writer. Triage are always there, so don't hesitate to call if you need to. And there is always someone to sit with you here on the forums.
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