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creative_writerSenior Contributor
I have been struggling a lot lately with suicidal thoughts. It’s become a daily occurrence and it’s been really overwhelming to cope. I am safe right but having to fight this is very exhausting. I feel so trapped, I am tired of living in pain, fear and shame. I feel like a burden to people and unimportant.
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
Really struggling right now. I’ve tried contacting Lifeline and SuicideCallBack service. I am safe, but really really overwhelmed. My body didn’t feel quite right in the morning today and I’m afraid, I don’t want to feel like that again. It just reminds me of all the shame, sadness, fear and anger I feel because of the trauma. I’m not even 19-20 years old anymore, and yet it doesn’t leave me. This isn’t even usual for me, I didn’t get these physical flashbacks so much before until a few days ago, since these few days it’s been everyday, even at times multiple times. It can last for a while too. It hard, really hard to live through it. I get really bad suicidal thoughts during them. And even a lot later on in the day because I am living this torture. It’s torture. I am so tired of fighting and fighting because every time I do I keep drowning and drowning. It seems easier to give up, and I feel torn between wanting to live and die. I took preparatory steps a few weeks ago towards suicide but never went through with it. I’ve been getting extra support lately around the suicidal ideation. I don’t even know how to talk to family, I live with them, so I have to manage resisting urges and keeping myself safe.
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WilhelminaContributor
Hi there, thank you, I'm new
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WilhelminaContributor
@creative_writer do you have any paranoia? I battle with paranoia every day
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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tymeModerator
Hi @creative_writer ,
I hear how difficult it is to sit with these unpleasant thoughts. I am glad you at given the helplines a go.
Remember, you can contact them multiple times or as needed. I guarantee you won't get the same person which means the next person you speak to may have a different view on things. I know that was the case with me when I used to call helplines - some were really helpful whereas others were not so helpful.
- Lifeline on 13 11 14
- Beyondblue on 1300 224 636
- Suicide Call Back Service on 1300 659 467
- 000 if in immediate danger
Take care, tyme
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NatureLoverSenior Contributor
@creative_writer so sorry to hear,,, sending wishes...
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NatureLoverSenior Contributor
Hi and welcome, @Wilhelmina
@Wilhelmina wrote:I've been struggling with suicidal thoughts, anxiety, depression, paranoia and ptsd
Do you have any professional support? Like a counsellor, meds, psychologist or psychiatrist?
A handy forum tip is if you type @ and then click on a name in the drop-down box, that person will get a notification and won't miss your reply. 🙂
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WilhelminaContributor
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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PaperdaisySenior Contributor
Hi @creative_writer I'm sorry to hear you've had those thoughts with you again today, but sounds like they haven't been as bad.
Just dropping by to offer some support 💛
Please reach out to crisis support if things escalate for you or some of the helplines here. 💝
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