Depression, Anxiety, Assault & Overwhelmed

Hi everyone,

Firstly, I am safe, and I'm with family.

Kinda hard to know where to start, so this might be really long winded, apologies in advance.

I have long term depression, that peaks at times, and I struggle to deal.

I have horrible social anxiety, which is far worse in crowded spaces like shopping centres, even the small ones. It's so bad, that I've been ordering groceries online since Woolies started it

I have Celiacs, Lactose Intolerance, Irritable Bowel Syndrome, Aspergers & a heart condition.

I'm a 40 year old Mum, to a son who is about to turn 18, who also has Aspergers & ADHD.

My Dad lives with me along with my velcro dog (Staffie)

So lately I haven't been doing too good, I'm medicated, but I've been having a hard time.

I've signed up here & also on the Black Dog Institute website, which has been helping to point my brain in the right direction, along with Journalling for mental health, which I've just started, so it's all new to me, but my first "brain dump" was 9 x A4 pages, which felt great.

Thursday night was my first very bad night in 6 years, and Friday wasn't much better, however, I can't thank you enough, here at SANE, your posts and replies have been enough to help me through a really rough patch, just knowing I'm not the only person struggling and I'm not alone.

Today is a complete 180, and I recognise that not every day will feel like today, it has been amazing, I truly just needed a break from the way I did feel, and I'm committed to continuing with the work I'm putting in, for myself and I know it will benefit my family too.

I've started taking a good multivitamin, B Complex, Omegas and a Calcium & D combo, to help with my various health concerns.

Like everyone else, money is not making life easier, stress at work, other drivers on the road doing dumb things, general ignorance & stupidity, it all contributes to making our lives more difficult, but here's the thing.......

I know I can make it, I know I'll get through, it's just....the light at the end of the tunnel is a long way off, normal motivations alone won't do it, it's my stubbornness that pushes me forward.

I refuse to be beaten by my own mind, while I can recognise my feelings, I refuse to let them break me.

Friday gone I took my first ever "mental health day" off work. It's the ABSOLUTE BEST THING I'VE EVER DONE. The alternative could have been quite bad.

Thank you to the team here at SANE, who keep us all, well.....SANE 🙂

I don't know if I can actually help anyone else here, but if you have any questions, please let me know 🙂

Love to all

Chocmint (icecream)