ChristheartSenior Contributor
Exhausted
I had my first day back running programs of support today. I am so exhausted. We did pottery in the morning and card making in the afternoon. The people on my group are all levels of abilities. Apparently last week several people were distressed that o wasn't there, and one refused to participate in anything because I wasn't there.
I'm so exhausted. I gave them everything I possibly had. And I still had another staff member interrogate me about 'what was wrong with me' and then give me 10 minutes of unsolicited advice about how maybe o just need to go to a concert or go out and have some fun.
She meant well... But by the end of it I felt so much worse. This is not some fleeting boredom or sadness... I wish I didn't feel this way.
I'm so exhausted and the thought of going back tomorrow is agonising. I run a community garden program tomorrow.
I don't know how much longer I can do this.
Oh and last night my throat was very sore and this morning I woke up to realise I have caught a cold... I wore a mask all day, social distanced and sanitised, I did a rat test which was negative.
I am safe tonight but I just feel at my wits end.
Having a shower now, then dinner then will get into my book.
Christheart
