I can’t cope

I didn’t get much sleep last night @Jynx so I need to get some tonight. It’s a 4 hr drive and I have to drive through Sydney and I haven’t driven in the city for years.

@Captain24 I'm happy to answer any questions hon

You will make it through, I know it hun @Captain24

Driving in Sydney is gnarly, I've done it a few times and the lanes are waaaay too skinny for my liking. I reckon you'll be ace though as long as you don't rush.

I just rechecked @Snowie it has 43 beds. Yeah it sucks for me because both are compulsory!

That’s a lot of people. That’s way more than I can deal with. I’m glad my CM found this one.

If I didn’t have you guys I don’t think I’d ever attempt an admission.

I use to do it all the time when I lived on the central coast @Jynx. It’s just been a very long time! They are skinny and I haven’t driven my Rav in traffic! My last car was a lancer!

My chest pains are getting stronger.

Although its big it doesn't feel like that many people @Captain24 the units are very separated. Well the unit I am on is. It's the only one on this floor.

I don't mind the groups hon, it does give you some structure to each day and does make the days go faster. It's also good knowing in advance what your day will look like.

There is also a communal lounge that we can use if you want. I rarely go in there, but I guess for some people it's a good meeting point.

I think an admission is brave hon. It shows that we have courage to help ourselves out. I find it really brave of you, especially with it being your first time.

@Captain24 don't forget how powerful our breath is for helping us to regulate hun - some deep, slow breaths, quicker in and slower out. I can imagine the chest pains are scary but it's also understandable since your anxiety was bound to be at its worst in the lead up to leaving.

Nurse On Call is always an option too, as are crisis services if you need that co-regulation to help you.

Maybe since you're in a bigger car, you won't get pushed around by other cars as much haha. Plus being in a bigger car means you're safer overall.

Hey @Captain24 , this is a HUGE step! We acknowledge that it's not easy at all!

Take deep breaths. Take a note book with you to write down notes 🙂 Remember, even when you are there, we are still around if you need peer support. Yes, make the most of the staff there if you feel things are getting super tough, but know you can fall back on us.

Perhaps you can share with us one takeaway from each day you are there?

Also, just a note. Know that when you are there, the first few days will be tough. Just hang in there. I reckon it takes about 3-4 days to settle.

I’m not feeling brave right about now @Snowie.

What do you do of an evening?

I agree with @tyme hon. It might take you a few days to settle in @Captain24

It normally does for me too. I think this is totally normal.

At night i normally stay in my room. This is when i watch a movie or some reruns on my phone or laptop. I downloaded a heap before i came in here knowing i would watch them.

As i said before they do have a communal lounge people sit in of a night and chat and watch tv but not really my cup of tea. I like the quiet time to myself. I also have a tv in my room so can watch that too if i want.

I normally take my meds about 8:30 so am asleep by 9 most nights.