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I can’t cope

I can’t cope

Hi. I’m new and have never been in anything like this before.
I’m really struggling with depression at the moment and just need a place to vent.
there is no reason as to why I feel this way. I just hate myself and feel like I’m an unworthy and useless person. I don’t have a partner or many friends. I feel like I keep pushing them away when I’m down. I’m just not worthy of them. I hate life and just wish I would go to sleep and not wake up. I feel so much emotional pain inside but numb at the same time. None of this makes any sense but it just how I feel.

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Thanks @Snowie.

First step is admission at 1 tomorrow. I don’t even know what to expect then. My heart is racing.

How are you going?

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Sending lots of love to you @Captain24 and letting you know I’ll be by your side tomorrow.

❤️💜❤️

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@Captain24 hopefully the admission goes ok. If it is like mine it will be a bit daunting but they go at a good pace. I found that they didn't overwhelm me with a lot , but took it at a good pace. Just remember that they are there to help you feel at ease. I found asking questions about things I wasn't sure of helped too. Remember whatever you say they would have heard it before.

Will be thinking of you tomorrow hon and feel free to ask me any questions you need.

I am going ok, just trying to take it day by day and amuse myself as much as possible.

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Thanks @Eve7.

Thanks @Snowie. I hope they are similar. I hope they make it smooth for me. What’s group therapy like?

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Group therapy is mostly good @Captain24

It is not compulsory to go so I can pick and choose what I go too.

They have some good art classes here which I probably go to the most. They do have a vast number of groups. It's nice to have a variation. They give you a timetable for the week at the end of the week before so can kind of choose then how to set up your week.

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@Snowie @Captain24 I think that's such a good point about the fact that there would be nothing the staff there haven't heard before. I know for myself I have so many weird thoughts hey, and used to feel so ashamed of a lot of them. Working in mental health has definitely shown me that through and through, humans are just oddballs all around haha.

Glad you got your house all ship-shape Cap! How is it going with the lil fuzz balls, getting some solid playtime in?

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The group therapy of a morning is compulsory @Snowie. Afternoon is voluntary. I was wondering how it work. I never realised a timetable.

Since I’m going in on a Thursday I guess I’ll get thrown into the deep end on Friday.

Do they do anything on weekends? I won’t be getting any visitors

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We have been playing and snuggling @Jynx. My house looks amazing! One positive out of this mess I guess.

I’ve still got more cats for ya!

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Hi @Jynx you are so right. They have seen and heard everything, even the nurses.

@Captain24 they do have groups on the weekend too. But once again your choice. Perhaps you can ask not to start groups until the Saturday. Give you a day to settle in.

I also get leave on my non ECT days so I have been going for a walk most days. There is a dog park close by so just nice to go there and watch everyone with their dogs. Makes me miss mine but gives me a break from the 4 walls of my room.

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@Captain24 hahaha well now I have the fabulous mental image of being in a sea of kitties!!

Aww yay, snugglefest is a go!

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