I can’t cope

Still here @Captain24 just busy! Here till 10pm 😊

Ahh there's just too many apps to keep track of isn't there! I'm the same, I check like one or two regularly, but then my friends will send me stuff on others all the time. I think learning to be able to ignore those little red notification numbers on my phone really helped, I used to get sooo anxious and worked up trying to make sure I always responded right away to everyone. Now sometimes it's weeks before I respond, because I have to wait until I have the right energy - not just social energy, but phone-social-energy, kinda thing. Helps me a lot, not feeling like I'm obliged to be looking at my phone and checking my notifications constantly.

I’m struggling @Jynx

I'm with you hun 👥💜

Could you find and give Pix some cuddles @Captain24? Just focus as much as possible on the feel of her fur, the sound of her breathing; let any thoughts come and go without trying to follow them, and just keep bringing your attention back to the doggy warmth 🐶

I don’t know where Pix is so I have Jett @Jynx.

He is sound asleep in my arms. He is such a sweet little soul. He deserves so much better and so does Pix

Aww bless!! That's so cute @Captain24. What kind of dog is Jett?

Honestly hun, the love and care you give to animals is inspiring. They're lucky, and got exactly what they deserve in you: someone who cares deeply, who takes them to the vet when they're ill, who gives them cuddles, and who takes joy in watching them frolic. I promise you, your perception isn't always the truth, and the fact that Jett is in your arms right now means that you are a safe place for them - you are their home.

He is a long-haired chihuahua just like Pix @Jynx.

I can’t see it.

I know you’re off now. Thanks for tonight.

Aww lil cutie!

You may not see it @Captain24 but I do, I see it plain as day. May you believe in your own goodness soon hun, and see how loud and bright it shines for all around you 💜

Nighty night 🤗

My CM didn’t forget our appointment today. She emailed me at 6 with a time. So at 11 I will find out what she has decided is best for me.

Im a little scared. But at the same time I don’t feel as though I shouldn’t be on my own. Should I tell her that? What if I do and she takes it out of my hands? What about my job?

I am scared that it’s the weekend coming up and there is no one I can reach out too. I have to do it on my own. Maybe it’ll be a test to see if I am ok enough to do it.

I don’t want to be taken to hospital again.

I'm glad you have a time to meet with your CM this morning @Captain24 ...I would tell her that you don't feel safe to be on your own. (At the same time, I'm hearing how you don't want to go to hospital before March)

I'm concerned you're suffering so much SI every day 😭

By the way, you made me laugh when you said 24C was freezing! Don't ever come to Melbourne, lol! At 36+ (which you like) I would be lying down unable to function 😄

Oh it gets really cold here in winter @NatureLover. It’s nothing to have -5C starts to the morning and tops of 6C during the day. I don’t cope with that at all.

I love the warmer months.

Im sitting here waiting for her. I am really scared.