I can’t cope

Thanks @hanami @Snowie @Bow

Im hoping it’s not too bad for Pix. I don’t really want to go down the surgery option if I don’t need too. She is only 4.

Im hoping this is the reset that I desperately need. I just need to make sure I have some alone time. Im trying to suggest things for my parents to do so that I can have free time.

Im also going to go to the beach every afternoon on my own for a swim. It’s currently 31 so it’ll be a nice beach day!

@Captain24

Understandable you want to avoid surgery for little Pix. Our fur babies are everything! My daughter had to put her little pug to sleep on Saturday. He just wasn't getting better and his quality of life was awful. He is no at peac. But I feel like I have a hole in my heart. She still has his brother, a black pug (the other one was fawn) thank goodness. He will keep them going.

Perfect beach weather for you!

I love that you can swim each day.xxx

31 sounds nice @Captain24

I hope your afternoon swims give you some comfort.

Oh no @hanami Im so sorry to hear that. My heart breaks for you and her brother. They know and it’s so hard to help them through.

If mum and dad stop arguing then I’ll be able to get out! I’m getting changed ready. It should be very mindful!!! @Snowie @Bow

Sitting here in pants and a jumper @Captain24 Very jealous at the moment!

Can you just ignore your parents and just go?

Thank you so much @Captain24 xxx

Oh dear mum and dad arguing sounds like a challenge lol.

❤️

I had to wait until they finished arguing so they could move their car so I could get out @Snowie. Sorry it’s cold there. Hopefully this weather stays the same for the next week.

Yeah they are my biggest trigger @hanami

So for the last 45 minutes I have been absolutely pummelled by waves, my ears are blocked and my back hurts. It’s been soooo good! I’ve loved every single minute of it! So good for the soul!

Oh that's awesome @Captain24 . I've always found the ocean so healing. As a little kid we lived across the road from the beach. I lived there! (can probably thank that time for some of the BCCs on my skin but anyways....) It was a great time. Endless days, no worries in the world!

Feel that joy in your days ahead!

 Yep.. Pix came with me!

Sorry.. I’ll probably spam you guys in the next few days.

I have a cousin that I use to talk too. But she kept saying things that I felt were patronising. I just couldn’t deal anymore. Plus I knew she would ask about dad and we wanted to keep it fairly quiet. I just got a text msg from her saying she has been really depressed lately because I haven’t contacted her. Now I realise not contacting her is probably the best thing