I can’t cope

I reached out for help and it wasn’t very helpful.

Hey @Captain24 ill sit with you if that might be in any way helpful.

I’ve lost count of how many calls I’ve made this afternoon. My heart hurts

Thanks @Bow. We can sit with each other

I have so much to do and just have no motivation. I’m still really struggling. I wish I never answered the phone last night when dads cousin rang. She has completely bought me unstuck.

morning @Captain24 😍

@Captain24 I know it sounds silly but you can only take this one step at a time. My Dad had a terminal illness and we just had to take it day by day. Enjoying the small things with him made it easier.

I know how hard it is, the not knowing. Our brain's automatically think the worst possible scenario.

Please know that we are here for you, through all of this.

I hope you can do something nice for yourself today 💗💗

Thanks @Snowie. I have been burying the worst scenario and trying to just focus on waiting for the results. It may even be good news. Nothing is concrete yet. It’s just hard when his cousin rings me all devastated and has him dead and buried and telling me how hard it will be for her. My MH isn’t at the capacity of dealing with her shit.

It is hard to deal with @Captain24 especially when it is coming from family.

My mum over thinks everything. Unfortunately it is something I can't change about her.

I hope the results come back clear. When are you meant to hear?

We find out on Thursday @Snowie. I was starting to struggle with my MH anyway. She has just sent it way down. I know I shouldn’t let her get to me but already being fragile I have let her win.

I am not ok. I’ve tried to stay busy to push the dark thoughts aside but it’s not working. I’ve also noticed that I struggle with going back to work. My anxiety is high and my mood is very low. I have spiralled pretty badly.

The wait is super hard @Captain24

That downward spiral is difficult too.

Not sure how I can help but here with you