I can’t cope

No way! @Captain24

I wouldn't be here if people gave up on me. So what right do I have to give up on others?

As I'm conversing with you, it's also bringing to my memory what I know of bipolar and those I've interacted with.

Meds do play a part with bipolar.

The initial rapid cycling didn't make sense, but now I see more the typical bipolar signs. But this is only from experience. It's something to talk to the professionals about.

The bipolar cycles are lengthier than BPD cycles. BPD episodes are heavily reliant on environmental factors whereas Biploar isn't. Hence maybe this is why you are feeling so low for no apparent reason???

Very interesting....

Thank you so much @tyme. I really do appreciate you.

They keep telling me that there doesn’t need to be a reason for this that it is just part of it. But I haven’t felt this low or been low as long before.

I hope you have a good night and a good few days.

@Captain24 💗💗

I just came home from seeing my CM. We talked through the reaction mum had when I told her about my MI. We discussed what I wanted out of the conversation, what I expected and what I got. She told me I had a lot of courage to tell her.

She also spent the time to point out where I have shown strength even though I’m really badly struggling right now.

It was a really rough but productive session. It hasn’t lifted my mood at all though. I’m still feeling worthless and hopeless and that I want to give up.

Hi @Captain24,

It's good to read you met up with you CM this morning. It sounds like you had a good chat and despite how hard things have been for you lately you are still scoring some goals. You should be proud of yourself, particularly when it probably takes more strength than usual.

I am sorry that the meeting hasn't lifted your mood though and you are still feeling down. As much as we are always here to support you unfortunately the Forums aren't a counselling or crisis service. If you (or anyone else reading this post) ever do feel like you need urgent support / help please call any of the following services for immediate support:

Lifeline: 13 11 14 or Crisis Chat

Suicide call back service: 1300 659 467 or online counselling

Samaritans: 135 247

If in immediate danger: 000

Warm wishes,

FloatingFeather

sorry that today hasn’t lifted your mood at all @Captain24 but i am soo proud of you

time for a little you and pixie time my friend

@FloatingFeather , @Snowie , @tyme , @Bow

Thanks @Snowie @FloatingFeather @Shaz51

I’ve just had my afternoon sleep to go to work tonight and I have woken up feeling so broken.

Sorry to hear that @Captain24

I hope work goes ok for you

Hi @Captain24

I'm sorry to hear that 😞 I hope you get through work ok tonight.

Sending hugs

Hanami

Just one step at a time @Captain24 - sometimes that's all we can manage and that's okay.