I can’t cope

Oh the victim card!! I know that only too well @Snowie.

Im hoping the break helps.

I need to start being courageous otherwise I won’t make it through. Right now I’m not sure that I want to make it through but I can’t be bothered to end it. My head is really messed up.

Thanks for the chat and support @Snowie I really appreciate it. I’m going to bed now. I have another early start in the morning.

Thank you too @tyme

I hear you with that one @Captain24 - 4 hours is far.

Do you think you can hold out until your trip?

You have helped me tonight too @Captain24 by keeping me company. Remember it works both ways for us.

I hope you are able to get some sleep tonight.

Will talk to you tomorrow 💜💜

Speak to you soon @Captain24 ,

Take care 🙂

I hope so @tyme. I work until Wednesday morning and then hopefully I can catch up with my CM before I go. I’m hoping it helps me. I’m kinda putting too much pressure on the break I think.

They want me to go private so apparently Sydney is it. My CM found one for me even before my Pdoc visit.

I’ve had a bad day at work It has been rainy, wet and cold all day. Yes I’m talking about the weather. 😂

I have had to concentrate really hard on keeping the truck straight on the wet roads. My anxiety is through the roof.

I feel so mentally drained and broken.

Practice some deep breathing first @Captain24 .

I actually 'feel' your post. Maybe a cuppa will make it better? Hot choc with sweetened condensed milk?

I think I might! @tyme

I’ve been deep breathing all day. I’ve been trying to settle it down. Nothing has worked.

Will I ever escape where I am right now? It’s been 3 weeks of complete hopelessness, worthlessness and brokenness.

Yummo @Captain24 ! Enjoy the hot choc! Do you find the can of condensed milk goes everywhere? I used to use the tube.

As for your MH, perhaps this is the dip period of bipolar? Remember how you were having rapid cycling moods?

Perhaps this will be for good because they can give you a proper med review?

It does @tyme. I can’t use the tube because I just suck it out until it’s gone!

Im guessing this is the dip. It’s the worst I’ve had though. I’m on 4 different meds and the psychiatrist adjusted the doses of 3 of them. If that doesn’t work in 2 weeks then she is adding another in. I guess it’s easier to work with than rapid cycling.

Maybe if the meds get me out of this then they are the right ones. Maybe then I may find stability.

I also have to find a psychologist. I don’t think that is going to be easy out here. I will ask me CM though for recommendations