I can’t cope

I think I need to speak to my boss @tyme and see if he can change things up a bit. So I don’t do exactly the same thing every shift. Others do varying tasks. Just one block out of the water cart would be nice.

How can I do peer work when I can’t keep myself ok? I do think I need to add something else into my life though. Maybe I’ll apply for cert IV in MH.

I went to bed no ok. I woke up not ok. I guess work is just copping the blame. I can’t keep going around in the same circle constantly.

@Captain24

So sorry to hear you are struggling.

Please know that we are not giving up on you and are here for you ❤️

That's a good start @Captain24 - speak to you boss. Doing the same thing day in, day out can me really boring.

But looking at it from a different light, at least you have a job! It pays the bills. It gives you some responsibility. Gives you something to get up to (even if it's boring). Provides some stability and routine.

Give yourself a chance @Captain24 - you've been through some heavy months.

As for peer work - you absolutely have the qualities. Even if not now, consider it 🙂 I do believe there has to be some sort of 'recovery' to be ready for peer work, yet I also see that as one reaches out, it aids recovery. You heard about my last few days - they were pretty hectic. But it doesn't stop me from connecting with everyone here. In fact, speaking to you really helped clarify things a bit.

And to have @Snowie listen was also awesome!

@tyme thank you, but I think you don't realise how much hope and courage you give to all of us on the forum.

Taken my meds so starting to get sleepy now. Hope you all get some sleep tonight 💤😴😴

Both the psych and my nurse said I need to go easy on myself @tyme

Maybe speaking to him may help.

I feel like I need a break from everything. I might have a look and see when holidays are available and Pix and I can go away for a few days. At least it will be something to look forward too. My best friend is coming over Easter. It’ll be good to see her and meet her girlfriend but it means 3 full days of showing goats.

I’m so glad I could help a little bit. It does warm my cold heart a little. I do hope you are feeling better and less stressed.

Thanks @Snowie. I read your posts and I’m glad you can see a future!

What about going to that incredible place you go for brekky? @Captain24

Enjoy it! You don't have baggage. You can do anything with Pix! Enjoy it while you can! That's how I see it (for myself).

@Captain24 good luck with this.

I, too, have been having trouble with work obligations. @tyme makes some very valid points, yet I know at times it all seems irrelevant, doesn't it?.

For what it's worth, you're doing yourself a huge favour in sharing and opening up about your concerns.

All the best with this.

You might be interested in this too https://youtu.be/XiCrniLQGYc @Captain24

That made me cry. @tyme Stuff that I didn’t even realise was a part of it. I have made him sit before and I can do it again. Just not tonight. All I can do is let him lay with me tonight, Pixie too. I have no fight in me.

I’ve decided I’m not going to work tomorrow and I’ll go to breakfast on my own. I think I need to contact my other nurse. My CM is away.

This may change when my alarm goes off.

Thank you all for your support tonight but I just have nothing left in me so I’m going to bed.

@Kyle1 @Snowie @Paperdaisy and anyone else I’ve missed.