I can’t cope

I feel you, and things aren’t cheap! I hope one day you get to have a fish tank again @Captain24

Once you’ve done all those, it’s a few less things to worry about 😊

You should be proud of yourself! I think recognising how much you’ve changed is really important too. You might still have a long way to go, but you’ve already come a long way in the last few months. With the right support and your own confidence growing, I have no doubt you’ll keep getting there 💛

@Captain24 @Nala2022 I'm really scared. I've just been told that my heart rhythm isn't sustainable for life. I'm trying so hard to hold myself together but I'm panicking 😞. (I'm safe still in hospital). I've had so many doctors and nurses doing all sorts of things here.

We are here with you @MissGremlin. That sounds so scary and I can understand the panic. You are in a safe place. They will work hard with you.

Have you called your friend?

@Captain24 I burst into tears the nurse didn't even care, he took my blood pressure and walked out (I'm safe).

I messaged my friend, all she said was "I'm surprised you went" i told her I didn't have a choice she never replied back.

Oh I’m sorry.. I thought she would come and be with you. @MissGremlin Its ok. You still have me.

Some nurses just aren’t overly caring under these circumstances. I’ve discovered that. It’s ok to cry and keep crying for as long as you need. You are struggling you are in a scary environment and have just had terrifying news.

Have you got a fidget!

@Captain24

I have my lanyard here with my fidgets.

Thankyou so much for being here

sweet, it truly means the world.

That’s so sad. I’m so sorry it’s like that @MissGremlin. I want to write something and not delete it!!!! But it’ll just cause more trouble.

Keep using those. Something to fiddle with and feel pressure from. What else can you do? A 5 senses is hard in that environment.

@Captain24

I don't do the 5 senses as I get triggered by taste and smell.

Gah now my head hurts from crying so much. I'm sitting on my bed staring down the hospital hall. The ecg machine has not stopped beeping cos my heart rate doesn't drop below 140.

Did you remember to put your washing out?

I’m so sorry @MissGremlin. I can understand why you’d be feeling so scared and panicked after hearing that. I’m glad you’re still in hospital and being cared for by the doctors and nurses there

Unfortunately I have to head off now, but I’m glad @Captain24 and everyone else here are around to support you. Take things one moment at a time lovely 💛

@Nala2022 they haven't been very caring here but I'm grateful to have the forums community.

I hope you have a lovely day sweet, thankyou for being here ❤️.