I can’t cope

No stress regarding the personal questions @Captain24 . I wouldn't answer if I wasn't comfortable in sharing 🙂

Let's just say, relationships are two sided. I can't expect you to share everything if I don't share anything? The main difference here is that my sharing is intentional i.e intentional story telling. It is not just to take up time and space. Moreso, to be able to connect and for people to know I'm human!

As I human, I got many flaws. I've stuffed up in the past. I've made mistakes. I hope by sharing, people do not have to go through some of what I have been through. Yet I also recognise that each experience helps shape who we are.

He is 2 yrs younger than me @tyme. So the baby and the favourite. He is much more like them than I am.

I come from a big family too. Dad is 1 of 10 and mum 1 of 7! I have 30 something cousins. But not all of us are close. The ones I am close to I don’t see very often anyway.

I guess you’re about to head off. Thank you so much for keeping me safe tonight. I don’t know if you realised that or not! Plus I’ve just found a change in my body that I think needs to be checked ASAP. If it’s what I think it is I may not have to worry anymore anyway

Hope you can finally get some sleep!

I've really enjoyed connecting with you and am so pleased to hear I helped keep you safe. @Captain24

Let's continue this convo when I'm on next. I didn't even realise the time! I'll be heading off soon!

Hugs, tyme

Thank you @tyme it has been great

Sleep well. Chat later in the week.

Trying to find some positive in my life right now. It’s hard especially fearing for my job.

2 good things about being stood down from work. I can enjoy the sun and no night shift. But I would rather not be able to and not have this much stress in my life

Hi there @Captain24

Sorry to hear you have job worries on top of other things. Must feel so tough right now. My first day back after the xmas break so just trying to catch up on the posts and how everyone is going.

Thinking of you,

Hanami

Maybe having some structure and some plans to fill your day would be helpful @Captain24 ?

sitting with you

Thanks @hanami @Bow

Hope your Christmas was good @hanami. Yes I’m trying to deal with so much and keep functioning at the same time.

I actually have structured my day today @Bow. I’ve done most of my list. I even made sure I put things on it like breakfast and lunch. When I’m this far down I forget them. I’m going to try and use the time to catch up with some friends too. Plus I have a new bed coming on Friday so I need to clean up and make room for it.

The stress is taking so much out of my body that I can’t turn my head properly because my neck is so tight. Plus my back is so much worse. I just went to the physio and she massaged me so hopefully that helps. I also cried when she asked me what was wrong. How embarrassing!

Glad that you are able to put the time to some good use @Captain24 but I’m sorry about the stress!

Aw, that sounds rough @Captain24 . Job insecurity is so stressful.

I did have a nice Christmas, thank you. How about you? Dramas? I thought of all my forum people while I was off, hoping you were all doing ok. Such a weird time of year....not knowing what day it is. Not knowing where your head is at....

I'm glad you have some structure in place. How is that gorgeous Pixie going?