I can’t cope

I’m glad you got it going and that guy helped out @MissGremlin.

At least you are now home and can try and unwind.

I did have a nap until Pix was kicking me because she wanted a pat.

How are you feeling now you are home.

don’t worry about the other post. It’s all ok

@Captain24 yes it was nice of him to help.

Haha oh silly Pix kicking you cos she wanted a pat. Did you manage to get her in the bath?

I am ok but feeling overwhelmed and emotional. I look forward to sitting in my bed tonight with my colouring.

Nah.. I had a nap instead of bathing her. I’ll regret it tomorrow but I’ve just given them a bone each so it’s good that I didn’t bath them. @MissGremlin

It’s hard feeling overwhelmed. I’m glad you have your colouring in. How’s the puppies?

Just got a text message back from my supposed best friend. Three lines long. I think she only did it because I saw her mother today. I don’t even have the energy to respond to it. It felt like the msg was a chore.

To say I’m a little hurt is an understatement.

Im just not worthy of anything, Im just unwanted, Im not good enough, maybe I don’t belong in this world anymore. I am safe. Just hurt and disillusioned.

@Captain24 I'm so sorry that the message from your best friend felt like it was a chore. I can understand how much it hurts sweet. New years eve when I reached out to a so called friend to tell her I didn't plan on seeing the new year in (I'm safe) all I got was 'what's going on' i replied with 'it doesn't matter' and that was the end of the conversation, later that night I had to ring her about the 2 lost dogs that I found and she didn't even bother to check in then.

You are worthy sweet and you are wanted here. I'm so glad you are in your world sweetheart and that we have been able to connect here. Sending you lots of love and hugs, I'm here for you ❤️.

Bathing your puppies tomorrow sounds like a good plan, hope they are enjoying their bones.

Casper and Stella are both good, they've been having fun playing.

I just nearly made a stupid decision.

Im now working through the safety plan.

Im safe now.

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@Captain24 wrote:

Im just not worthy of anything, Im just unwanted, Im not good enough, maybe I don’t belong in this world anymore. I am safe. Just hurt and disillusioned.

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Oh, @Captain24 I'm so sorry. You deserve better from your friend. I feel it is more a reflection on them, not a reflection on your worth. I can totally understand those thoughts though, because I have often internalised situations like that myself too.

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@MissGremlin wrote:

New years eve when I reached out to a so called friend to tell her I didn't plan on seeing the new year in (I'm safe) all I got was 'what's going on' i replied with 'it doesn't matter' and that was the end of the conversation, later that night I had to ring her about the 2 lost dogs that I found and she didn't even bother to check in then.

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@MissGremlin I am so sorry your friend was so callous also. 😢. Wow. I cannot imagine.

Are they often unable (or don't know how) to respond to people who are in distress?

@Captain24 I'm really glad you are working through your safety plan.

Please know that we are all here for you sweet ❤️

I’m a mess and just don’t have the right words, well any words actually @MissGremlin

Same to you @AlwaysMyself

Thank you

@Captain24 it's ok sweetheart. I'm sitting with you, you don't have to say anything just know that I'm here, we are here, you're not alone ❤️.