I can’t cope

Your post was fine. You shared what was going on and then what you are doing at the moment as part of keeping well (self care) @Captain24

I totally hear you. I don't know if it's an ADHD thing but I get overstimulated with certain noises like expanding metal. The noise just grates on me! SO I totally get that!

Can you put it all behind you and just relax now?

No, they are the 3D lego blocks you introduced me to. I don't know the name @Former-Member .

I hope you find the strength to do what's right for you in terms of your appointment. I hear how hard it is.

That’s good @tyme. At least I got something right.

I have crashed and crashed bad. I don’t know what to do. I feel like I’m under water, no longer keeping my head above it.

I did make dinner and having a brownie as a treat.

Im so sorry I have failed.

Do you feel you need to reach out to someone for support? @Captain24

Also, I gotta say that if you've crashed crashed, maybe then there's no where else up upwards?

Sitting with you hun.

What's the on the agenda for tomrorow?

Looking forward to seeing photos of them @tyme

Haven’t seen anything like those.

hoping you are enjoying the challenge

I don’t need crisis support @tyme. Unfortunately I am safe.

I just want to curl up into a little ball and disappear. I just don’t feel like I can handle life at the moment. It all feels just too much. I can’t face it. I am having thoughts that I haven’t had in a while though.

I’ve got a load of washing in the machine set to have finished before I get up, then I have another one to do. Clean the house, go food shopping and sort out meals for the next 3 nights and then sleep for 12-4, hopefully. I’m hoping once this surgery is don’t that I can then sort out these hot sweats. Maybe then I’ll sleep better. I think it’s adding to everything.

So at least you don’t have to bother with me for 3 nights!

@Former-Member @Captain24

Your not a bother @Captain24 ! I some ways, I which I could say "slow down", but then I'm mindful that if you slow down, your thoughts will wander.

It's like a hit and miss. Some days are great and others are not so great.

Maybe we can say, "If today's a crap day, just wait for the good day to come around?"

I did have a self care day on Sunday. I didn’t do any chores just did a 3d puzzle of a gingerbread house, the resin coaster, the mosaic and 2 lego kits. @tyme. I also allowed myself some downtime on Tuesday afternoon too and that’s when I did the bus 3d puzzle. I have been trying to look after myself and stop pushing myself so hard. I’ve burnt out from not letting up on myself. But I still pushed through and did all those things. I didn’t allow myself to sit down and do nothing.

It’s been slowly brewing, the burn out I think.

I guess there has to be good days soon. I’m not looking forward to work as I think it’s a trigger at the moment. I mostly like my job but this block has been a struggle so far. My next break is busy. I’m going down to see my psych in person. So that’s a big day with 4 hours there and 4 hours back. Then now the lawn the next day and clean the house and get ready for work the following day. So there is no slow down time in there either.

Im still anxious about the surgery and now I’m waiting to see if that spot is cancerous but there is a 25% chance that it’s not. Trying to focus on that.

I just feel that I want a day in bed with just nothing but will and feel sorry for myself. I’d guilt trip myself if I did that though. It’s like there is a no win situation.

The basketball is so cool! Thanks for sharing