I can’t cope

My bipolar, my adhd, my asd. Maybe I just wasn’t good enough to listen to. @Jynx. I didn’t understand what was wrong with me so why should they. I get the adhd is a lot later in life for uterine people so I guess that’s why that was missed.

That sounds good in theory. Shame I was born now. Sometimes I think it’s a shame I was even born at all.

I really don’t know what would be helpful. I’m too far down to see any light. I’m on the lounge with my dogs. I need to have dinner but just don’t want any but I can’t take my meds unless I eat. Maybe I should just not take them. I just don’t know. I’m just really lost. I’m barely treading water.

I just gave the dogs a treat so at least that made them happy. Pix just wants cuddles. Jett is curled up next to me sleeping. I’m lucky to have them. They love me unconditionally.

@Captain24 oh but you did find some light! Your doggos unconditional love is a very bright and shiny light to hold onto, I'm sure they're VERY glad you were born 😋

Hope you are able to figure out the meds/food bizz. I have meds I have to take on empty stomach which is it's own hassle too, can make things tricky!! Like a juggling act 😵

I am off very soon. I hope your week is okay hun, give your dogs a lil squish from me?

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Just crying and miserable @Jynx Lots more going on too. So much I need to say but I will get into trouble. I’ve been in enough trouble today

Thanks for tonight.

Have a good week.

@Jynx This just came up on Facebook and I thought of you

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@Captain24 wrote:

Have a good weekend @AuntGlow

Thank you for today. I know I was a bit much but I appreciate the time you spent with me today.

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Hello lovely! How are you doing today? How was your weekend? 💛

Hey @AuntGlow

My weekend wasn’t really good. I worked all weekend and didn’t really have good days. I was made feel bad about myself when I thought I had done well, I was told I was shit. That was the word. I also got into trouble for doing the what I thought was the right thing. I told my boss that it will never happen again. I think he thinks I meant it in a sorry way but it’s in an i don’t care anymore way.

I worked last night and feel like I failed again. I’m going in again tonight so I’m guessing it’ll be a bad night no matter what I do. Plus I’m tired.

How are you going? Get up to anything exciting?

Oh goodness, that sounds very overwhelming for you @Captain24. I am so sorry to hear work was unsupportive, that must have been really disheartening to hear after all of your hard work.

Is there anyone at work you can discuss this with tonight?

I will be here if you need to talk, I am hoping tonight is better for you. 🥺💛

Nah. No one to talk to @AuntGlow. You just have to grin and bear it. It’s what the place I work at is like. If you say anything everything gets worse. You’re better off just copping it.

Last night was okish. I was left alone all night so that was good. I don’t have to go back now for 2 weeks.

I have set myself up to fail today though. I have so much to do and have to try and get some sleep. I don’t think it’ll be much.