I can’t cope

Having everything finalised would be great so you are free and have nothing to think about or hanging over your head. @tyme

My appointment is at 11 on the Wednesday and I’m suppose to be in bed by 12. It’s my first nightshift. I’ll post after my appointment as to what my blood test results bring up and what he decides is the way to go with the polyp. He should get the results in a couple of days so he will have them by my appointment. You’re on holidays so it’s all ok. I’ll just fill you in when you get back.

It’s still in tents and communal toilets and showers! I guess it’s in civilisation. Of If I go to a caravan park it’s in a cabin with an ensuite! I don’t like to rough it. The kids will grow up with it and be ok with it and will probably do the same for their kids. We never camped, we really only went on 3 holidays and the longest was a week.

I have a plan so that’s good. I’m more worried about the cost and having to take time off work as I don’t have much sick leave. If it comes back that it’s the start of uterine cancer then so be it. I just can’t afford it. My cousin has just been diagnosed and my auntie had it when she was young.

These campsites are called Big4. They are SUPER clean. People come around and clean them all the time. We go to a differen Big4 each time because the have everything for the kids there. There are over 300 Big4 campsites Australia wide.

We couldn't do it rough. It's sorta glamping to be honest lol. @Captain24

If a 'real' camper saw us, they'd laugh. We even have a heater/fan in the tent!

As for cancer, it sounds like it runs in the family! Oh no! In a way, I'm so glad you got it checked out.

We have a Big 4 here in town. It’s not a really big one like you’re probably going to though. @tyme.

At least you have some creature comforts. Is it a big tent? I did sleep in the open in an airfield in Spain. It rained mid because it was so windy and dusty before it rained. It was a big storm. I hated every minute of it. I was dirty and muddy and had just spent the night with 100 000 people. It was horrendous!!!! I said never again!

It is lucky I got it checked and there is history. Plus my mums aunt had polyps and they kept growing back and had to have a hysterectomy. So it’s all sounding so positive.. I don’t care if I die, there isn’t really much to live for other than my dogs.

I guess if it is your time, then so be it. But we also can't hurry the time. To be honest, life is good for me, but I also don't mind dying. Look, if it happens, it happens. What the point of fighting the inevitable? That's how I see it.

Does the doc know it runs in the family @Captain24 ?

And yes, your Spain trip doesnt sound the most... thrilling lol

That’s what I figure. Whatever will be will be @tyme. I’ve got nothing to fight for. I shouldn’t be too worried. I don’t know what’s going to happen so just wait and see what the next step is

My GP doesn’t know as it didn’t come up, it’s not what I was expecting. I don’t think he was either. He was certain of POCS. I did tell him that there was a history of that.

It was just one night but I’ll never forget it. I also won’t forget the bread rolls they packed us for lunch for the week we were in Madrid. If you threw it at a window it would have smashed the window. They were so hard but so were all the bread rolls over there. You couldn’t even bite them.

So you went for a week with your family?? It sounds like a holiday to remember lol. Good and bad. Put it this way, it was such an experience, that you remember even the bread rolls up until this day!

Talk about putting a positive spin on things 🙂

@Captain24

As you said, whatever happens, sorta happens. Feelings may come up, but let's just wait till we get there, then worry about it.

Oh, and I don't think I responded to your last question re the tent. It's a 10 person tent with three rooms... so it's not small

I went for 3 weeks with a church group. It was world youth day the night we were in the airfield and the Pope was there and ran the Mass on the next morning. The first two weeks we toured around Spain and spent a couple of those days in Salamanca. Then to Madrid. After that we went to Orlando for 3 days and came home. It was a pilgrimage.

We did stay in a motel for a couple of nights and the breakfast had churros with chocolate dip, chocolate muffins and of course regular eggs and bacon and stuff.

I’ll just wait and see what happens.

That’s sounds better. It sounds big. At least there seems to be a little bit of space but there is a lot of you! So the kids sleep with you?

Wow! Three weeks! @Captain24 That's pretty cool. Sounds like you were quite involved in Church stuff in the past. Churros sound yum! Sounds like an international brekkie lol.. bacon, eggs, choc muffins.

It sounds like the last time I went to India. I had bacon and eggs, sausages, hash browns and toast lol.

Kids with me in the tent??? Of course! Generally, two sleep with me, and one with her parents. But now that the youngest is older, she may also want to jump in with me....

Then my sister asked if I wanted to go to Adelaide straight after? I said..."Um, No thanks!"'

She was intending to come back from camping on Friday arvo, then fly to Adelaide in the evening! No thanks!

Sorry to all those Adelaidians out there... but no, the incentive is not great enough to put myself through that lol!

One of the Nuns talked me into it plus a girl that I worked with was going @tyme. I use to go every weekend as a kid and then I only went Christmas and Easter. I never miss Christmas but I have missed some Easter’s if I’ve been at work.

I love a buffet breakfast. They are the best!! Actually I love me a buffet!!!

Oh.. 3 kids, you won’t get any sleep for a week!

I get the feeling you don’t like Adelaide. Is your sister going anyway?

I don't like buffets for dinner, but I don't mind brekkie because it's pretty simple.. just some cereal, eggs, bangers, has browns, danishes., fruit .. can't go wrong there. @Captain24 Whereas with the dinners, I find the food pretty average most of the time. I can't justify the cost.

As for Adelaide, lets just say there's nothing that really drives me to go there. Yes, there are a few family friends, but it's not enough to get me there again. I've been a few times, and I just find it tooo.... quiet???

My sister asked me to go because she couldn't lug the three kids and a hubby there, so she wanted me to help her. But if I'm not going, she won't go either.

I'm goigng to need a break after a week with three kids!

Lol, and that's funny that the nuns talked you into going fo the trip. It's a cool experience, but its a long way to go!

Anyway, I have to go now. I have to finish work before I log off tonight. I'll catch you tomorrow evening???

All the best with tomorrow. we are accountability buds.